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January 3rd, 2007

notes from the md [Jan. 3rd, 2007|01:44 am]
Mostly Dead
a Note about these notes: these notes pertain to the temporary exercise log wherein I keep track of the madness of running in circles, running in place, running up stairs that do not exist, lifting metal objects, using gym equipment, and generally acting the fool instead of growing lazy, fat, and old (what can I say, I've always been a rebel, just not doing it too well of late)... most of these notes might be boring as they are simply my initial reactions, thoughts, and mostly just the facts (we hope) immediately after nearly killing myself at the gym or on some running trail... sadists might enjoy them, the rest of you, who knows... you might want to send sympathy or cheer me on or just watch (shaking your head, perhaps)... but feel free to comment in any way shape or form, for it'll let me know that I may actually still be alive and such information would be greatly appreciated... (NOTE: this page is the third such page of notes in this journal, notes of past years can be found, well, in the past)...

and now, the workout notes (a new beginning, whenever):

2/28... yeah, it took me this long to get this going this year, not unlike some of the previous years, but still I decided to use the first few days of this year since they were just sitting around empty gathering dust... and we ask, what brings me back here to this dichotomy of journal madness and folly, depression and euphoria, pity-party and motivational speeches?... the nice lady I call my doctor and the lab results she threw in my face today, that's what... at 220, again, it is time to drop weight...

3/1... I wrote that 2/28 blurb just now for yesterday (and it's already 2am on 3/2, but actual time, for whatever it's worth, shall be recorded starting with the next blurb in this extended recurring entry... for now, for the first time, I try to take a serious look at the numbers on that lab sheet (which will wait as my roommate just woke and seeks interaction)... initially, I just glanced and grumbled as they did not look good...

3/2, 2:07am... ok, things to look up to refresh my memory: Triglycerides, AST, ALT... apparently these, along with my glucose, hemoglobin, calcium, and chol/HDLC ratio are high and rising in the last few blood tests over the past few years... cholesterol was below 200, but rising too... no doubt lack of exercise is the primary culprit... coupled with randomly binging on ice cream, chocolate, and high-volume carb and cheese meals does not help... this sucks... I mean, sure I've been looking for a reason to stop the stupid binging on comfort foods, but dangit they are all I have to provide physical stimulation and comfort these days... I can see loneliness and aching for companionship growing as I shut my mouth to most foods I love...

the metabolism in this body is definitely slowing with passing years... almost every day at work I have a salad with broccoli and tomatoes and carrots and it has not been effective... a few nights a week I have a couple of 100 calorie veggie burgers with light bread and that isn't helping... obviously, it's exercise... I sit all day at a desk and then sit all evening in the big green chair... day after day, the fool on his rump... time for a change, I hope...

3/3, 3:16am... salad, mostly lettuce, a few cherry tomatoes and slices of cucumber, a sprinkle of bacon bits and a dozen sunflower seeds, a few ounces (if that much) fat free zesty italian dressing (3g carb an ounce)... so I believe less calories went in today than the previous two days... continuing the quasi-fast...

and then the pills... Milk Thistle (liver), Cranberry (kidney), Green Tea Extract, Cayenne Fruit, Echinacea, Papaya Enzyme (digestion), Odorless Garlic (heart), Lecithin, Cinnamon (sugar), Ginkgo Biloba, Bilberry Extract (eyes), Vitamins B, C, E, and multi-vitamin and the blood pressure pill and the pill-popping baby is all set... this would be the strange way I start to deal with the lab results and rebuilding of this body (and we'll just keep hoping it's possible right to the very end)...

3/3, 2322... something is happening (or more accurately, is not happening in this body... I practically fasted the past four days, consuming less than 300 calories per day... I dropped only 3 pounds... it makes no sense, except to suggest that the metabolism is way out of wack... perhaps too dependant on the high carb high sugar diet I've gotten it used to, but still, something else feels like it's going on... like the body is not digesting carbs and sugars the way it used to (which might explain the green shit when I eat high carb/sugar stuff like chocolate fudge ice cream and the lethargy when I fast that never used to happen until the last few months, but then, could it be the gall bladder not producing enough bile to burn the fat that creates the green and the lethargy when the body is asked to turn to burning fat during a fast?... the latter suddenly makes more sense... and I do have elevated liver enzymes and occasional twangs in the gall bladder area after eating a lot... or am I just reading too much into a mindset of laziness and mostly deadness more than ever?... time will tell if I survive this latest experiment)...

meanwhile, the gym was renovated... I mean, seriously... all new machines... brand new... high tech... two of everything... and a TV... I was so excited when I got down there I forgot how tired I was... for a little while... I'll have to get used to the readings on the new equipment... some things are different... and I want to figure out how to get the heart rate thing to work on the lifecycle (it works on the treadmill)... and stop it from cutting into my skin (that feature has very poor design, regardless of price and features)... but so much to play with... new and different weight machines... so much excitement... not if I can only get the body to cooperate... I hope I continue...

3/5, 2304... sweet, I made it back down there before another year went by... yes, that is how wasted the fitness center in my brain (and my abs) have become... pathetic was never as pathetic as pathetic is now... and maybe in a month of Sundays, if I continue to ignore the influences around me (fat chance, literally, as pizza sits on the table next to McDonalds bags and pepsi bottles and leftover Chinese and other stuff sits in the fridge... but I didn't touch it and ate two veggie burgers and three fish patties (560 calories total) and a small can of asparagus and a medium can of spinach (50 calories total) with water... and lunch was a scoop of imitation crab salad, which i felt was a luxury... that's it for today... and exercise... so how slow has my metabolism gotten (I am such a dang chameleon, dammit!) that I have lost just 3 pounds after 6 days with this being the most calories I've had in the six days (except for yesterday when I probably went about 1200 calories)?... the body has gone mad, I tell you...

but on the other hand, tonight I had much more energy than the last time at the gym and while I am way far below anything near satisfactory results, improvement is a good thing... hope for continue...

3/6, 2357... better than before, energy returning, wow, big change from last week (body obviously response poorly to 200c diet after 4 days)... again about 1200 calories today (ate out, not easy to tell, maybe 1500?)... lunch: italian egg roll (fried, with cheese), chicken-mango wrap... not hungry for dinner... may have breakfast tomorrow, definitely lunch... napped 3 hours after work (deep sleep) and then gym... leg fatigue from long layoff, but felt/feel great... improvement increasing... continue...

3/7, 2340... yeah, improving... started out with calf tightness and fatigue, partly because I just woke from a nap and went directly to the gym... a little dry... more calories (and more fat/carb calories) today than in a week, maybe 2000?)... breakfast: shroom,onion, cheese omelete, bacon, home fries... lunch: veggie wrap... no dinner, feel fine (still the overall bloat of excess weight around abs), will have similar breakfast tomorrow... napped on and off 2.5 hours (medium)... continue...

3/8, 2350... holy crap... ammonia smelling perspiration after more than 100 consecutive minutes on the life cycle 93... phew, yet paced well and muscle fatigue, but no cramps, and breathing easily the last 45 minutes and pulse peaked at 160, averaged 147 for first 60 minutes, 138 for last 45 minutes... good lactic acid production, good (though I shudder to use the work) stamina for the 4th consecutive day... burning 1100+ calories inspires a smile... weight still dropping at a pound a day... continue...

3/9, 2333... hmmmmm, ok, yesterday I really pushed limits of endurance, stamina, and conditioning by pushing time... and exhaustion was extreme... and I felt a bit woozy and achy all night, waking a lot and sleeping maybe 4 hours... and a bit woozy today... and chest strain, upper right quadrant, that had me wondering if it was the heart muscle urging caution... so I chose to keep tonight shorter, guaranteeing that by showing up 20 minutes before the techical closing time for the gym... and I'd have been ok with a light slow workout... but the legs, rubbery and twinging, pushed anyway... fastest mph pumping to date on the fifth consecutive day... and my nipples are sore... but the wooziness is gone, the chest pain gone, and the spirit once again almost smiling with a touch of surprise... of course a true smile might come after 100 consecutive days of consistent improvement, but still, continue...

3/10, (3/11,0056)... crazy... eating to recover means continuing to push limits, but tonight was perhaps a fool's night to push limits as I have a long day (like easily 16 hours long, more likely 18 hours long) on my feet walking around Disney... hopefully, like Weebles, I'll wobble, but not fall down... the food intact was there so the energy was there so the workout was there... yeah, I might have gone earlier, but the consistency of the hour still seems important... I might have lightened up, but the energy was there... maybe that's why I didn't do the concerts today, to rest and not have an excuse to skip a workout... tomorrow night, however, I may skip it... maybe... depending on when I get home... crazy, maybe, but a break can lead to a stop and a stop is not what this body needs at the moment... just to keep track, finally, first in three or four days, or longer, a BM... you had to know, right?... continue...

3/11 (3/13,0011)... 3hrs sleep (lost an hour due to clock change), out 17+ hrs, Disney 14+ hrs, last 7+ hrs pushing 240+ lbs in a wheelcvhair up and down ramps, we shall see tomorrow at weigh in if it was enough to make up for no gym...

3/12 (3/13,0014)... ~3hrs sleep, usual work day, ate big dinner, napped 3 hrs, weighed in at same weight past three days even after large dinner and increased carbs (bread, yogurt) the past few days, so skipping the gym yesterday was ok... very small Tink-body at gym provided inspiration to push despite fatigue, so a few best times achieved... must increase sleep... continue...

3/13... lost a day of these notes somewhere along the way... continue...

3/14, 2351... ok, consecutive day string on the lifecycle back on track after a long day at Disney (so consecutive workout days are up to 10 days still with steadily increasing stats each day)... eating more normally, weight continuing to drop slowly, but at least 30 pounds to go for satisfaction... must remember to push water as increase pills creating kidney sediment (red granular, appears uric acid based)... possibly switch to liquids where possible (and affordable)... should do more research on mixture of pills I am taking... continue...

3/15 2326... frustrated by losing an inspiring entry yesterday, equilibrium was upset, the NCAA tournament picks were not made, the bummer feeling brewed deep down... this may be why tonight was a challenge at the gym... and sleep reserves are low... or perhaps it was the corned beef and cabbage, definitely not the idea food for the kind of workouts I am doing... the first bloated feeling in two weeks, high body/blood gases... add the fact that someone had just gotten on the lifecycle I usually use and I had to use the one that cut my hand last time... I also sit too much throughout the day...

still, though I felt like 60 minutes would be beyond this body tonight, I had a decent kick for the last four minutes as the last mile stats for today show... and I paced myself to be ahead of the guy next to me on the more comfortable lifecycle... I learned that the other lifecycle (the 93xi) has a lower base resistance than the one I used tonight (91xi), so I burned more calories per step/mile than on the other, however speed was more challenging to maintain... and yet, I seem to be pushing myself to settle for no less than 6mph, which is better than I thought I'd be at this very early stage of re-conditioning... and it is the eleventh consecutive push day... so all in all, stay away from gassy foods like cabbage, balance the meats, get more sleep, and continue...

3/16 (3/17,0054)... and just when I felt like a break might be wise, and on less sleep than any previous day in this twelve consecutive workout days, and just when I left myself 60 minutes until closing time, the Deputy showed up an hour late and I continued for 2 full hours on the Lifecycle 93xi setting best times for mileage all the way through and best times for calories after 60 minutes (second best by less than 5 calories up to 60 minutes)... I must be crazy, or something... yay...

I downed all 40 oz of water I took before the 65 minute mark, so the second hour was without water and the liver and kidneys are letting me know that was not the wisest move... I've had 30 more oz since in the past hour and intend to down 20 more ounces asap... I also ate fewer calories today and drpped another pound before the workout... I may eat tonight before going to bed, maybe...

I feel surprisingly good... continue...

3/17 - 3/23... the stats are in the LOG... briefly, I continued consecutive days gym work until the 21st, which would make it 16 consecutive, took one day off, and started up again... on 3/18 I came down with a UTI that kicked my butt all week, but still, I only took the one night off... pissing blood on 3/22, still went to the gym... doubled the anti-biotic for two doses and now started to feel improvement, though still weak and fighting the bug... continue...

3/24... crazy, no doubt... right kidney not feeling great after 3 hours on the Lifecycle... yes, 3 hours... I took a 3 minute break after the second hour because I ran out of water... 70 ounces consumed, 60 in the first 60 minutes... kinda numb... this mind over body trip feels great in my head though... hope I don't die tonight... continue...

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10/2/08... what a wasted lump i've become... i did do an hour on the eliptical tonight after softball, but still...



if i return to this sort of log, you may find directions to it somewhere in here...





be good to you...
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